i hate feeling like this. I thought for sure that when it went away this time, that it was gonna stay away. but its back, and its affecting me. My parents just love telling me how much of a failure im gonna be and how im not going anywhere in life bc im so behind in school, and how i can’t seem to keep a job. If i can’t fucking stay up in school how tf do you expect me to have a job and keep up in school? I obviously am no capable in doing it. ik my new jobs gonna make me even more behind in school, and its making my depression worse. the only thing im scared of doing again, is cutting myself.. i don’t wanna do it. but i always have the urge to do it, and i feel like im gonna do it again. I just wanna be happy again, when is it my turn?